We can’t even survived in confined space, what’s more this?

Sesungguhnya apa yang dijanjikan kepadamu pasti datang, dan kamu sekali-kali tidak sanggup menolaknya (6:134)

I woke up to a news that my uncle passed away early morning due to heart attack. (Most likely) It pounders me that there’s a lot of emotions involved in this eventful period of his life. He could be grieving over his regrets or he could be smiling cause its over. What he is going through is what we fears the most. Which is, death. Nobody know whats the experience will be like. Cause the dead is just dead. Its the end of your life. The end of your social life, the end of your responsibility and the end of your love towards everything. No one is there to listen to your sorrowness nor your complains. 

Being buried deep into the earth is the most frightening moments for any humans could ever achieved. Whats worst. After you’re being buried, no one is there to stay for you. Not even your loved ones who took care of you when you are young. At most, they may stay there for few hours but will leave you when night comes. You will see no one at your grave but yourself and others who had the same fate as you. You’re left on your own in the dark and trapped underground all by yourself. Now this comes the ‘interesting’ part. What you did in the past matters most. Not friends. Not love and definitely not your money earned. Your deeds, your kind heart and soul is there to stay with you. For muslims, your prayers, donations, and your children prayers stays with you. (Thats if you have children who prays and make dua’s for you). If he’s good on earth and follow god’s rules, then he will be relieve that it has happened. But what if he’s not? He can’t go back and unwind all the mistakes and sins he did years ago.

“The door for forgiveness has closed. We are sorry for that. No more tries”.

Its quite sad to think what is he going through and to make it worst, this is what i’m going to face in the near future. No one knows when will be our last breathe will be. It could be next year, next month or even tomorrow. Who knows? Only god know. Who are we to say that we will still be breathing in the next 24 hours? This makes me think that nothing last forever in this world. Be it love, money and family. But I know only our deeds last forever. On the lighter note, not even our sins can last forever. Now its up to us to do self reflection. 

I’m  terribly sorry that I didn’t attend, my uncle. I regretted this. I really do. Now I shall pray for your forgiveness and your afterlife. May u have a better life now. Rest in peace